"May the favor of the Lord rest upon us;
establish the work of our hands for us -
yes, establish the work of our hands."
I have this verse written on a notecard and it is placed next to my sink in the bathroom. I can't even remember why I have it written on a notecard or when I placed it in the bathroom. All I know is that every time I have read it lately, I am encouraged.
I will preface this by expressing I have done no research on this verse to establish the context for which it was written.
I must say that I do not think anyone ever told me parenting would be so challenging. Oftentimes, I feel so ill-equipped to care for our two boys. We desire to love them, keep them safe, make sure they are healthy. We desire to impart to them Christian beliefs, conservative ideals, strong morals. We desire for them to be drawn to our Lord as their Saviour. I am only listing a few of the desires we have for our boys - and this is already a tall order. How do Garth and I properly parent these children to best ensure our desires and expectations are met?
We have failed so many times as parents. There are words I wish I could take back and spanking and disciple I wish I would have given. There are times I wish I would have stopped doing the laundry or washing the dishes and sat in the floor and played cars or read a book. But, I can't look back. I can only move forward and try again another day.
We have publicly given these boys over to the Lord, and I find myself more and more giving them over every day. I lack in so many aspects of my parenting skills that I need someone to make up the difference. I am so thankful that I have Jesus to turn to. He is the ultimate Father and we can learn so much about parenting by reading His Word.
Now back to Psalm 90:17. I think at this point in my life, Dylan and Jaydon are the work of my hands. I am a stay-at-home mom and focus all my attention and energy to these kids. They deplete me of all my time and energy on a daily basis. Jaydon is in a massive terrible two stage. I couldn't even make it into the grocery store the other day because of the tantrum he was throwing. These types of things happen on a daily basis. Dylan is growing up and maturing, but he is still as busy as ever. He is constantly on the go and wants to know where we are going, or what we are doing and with whom we are doing it with. At the end of the day I feel like all I have done is housework, spanked bottoms, and said "Not now".
Because I am not the perfect parent I pray that the Lord establishes the work of my hands. I hope He can see my efforts and look past my failures, bridge the gaps and establish my work - my children. I pray that despite my shortcomings our boys grow up to be established works of the Lord. I pray they are beacons on light in this ever darkening world. I know the Lord hears our cries and prays that he will sustain us as parents to continue the good fight even during those very nasty days.
Dylan and Jaydon are blessings for the Lord and we are so humbled to be called their mom and dad. We love them, treasure them, and pray for them often. I know with the Lord's favor is upon us and He will establish the works of our hands!!!!